BrANdi CaNE's

UGH TODAY I HAD 4 EGGS AND SOME HASH BROWNS.. I GUESS ITS NOT THAT BAD BUT STILL IM HUNGRY..I NEED TO LOSE WEIGHT UGH ITS AGGERVATING. I HAD A LAXITIVE TEA BUT HASNT WORKED YET!

WELL I WAS DOING GOOD I DIDNT EAT ANYTHING FOR A FEW DAYS.. BUT TODAY I WAS DEPRESSED SO I DECIDED TO EAT SOME SUSHI.. I HAD LIKE 10 LIL TUNA PIECES.. I GUESS IT WONT KILL MY DIET COMPLETLY!I ALSO BAUGHT SOME LAXITIVE TEA, SO I AM GONNA TRY THAT TONIGHT.OH AND I THINK IM GONNA BUY SOME SUCKERS.. ITLL HELP I THINK CUZ ILL HAVE SOME FLAVOR IN MY MOUTH.

wow its been so long. I had my lowest weight a couple months ago.110lbs. for being 5'9 and almost a sz.0 that felt nice. then my dad made me start eating and now im back up to 130 comeon i need u guys to help me. eww i feel fuckin gross u have no idea..HELP!!!

Age:17

Height: 5'9.5

Heighest Weight: 151

Lowest Weight: 125

Current Weight: 132

Goal Weight : 110

Fave food : fruit,bread,frys

Fave Drink : coffee or latte

Fave Exercise : shopping&dancing

Thinspo : marisa miller,nicole Richie,jenna jameson,adriana lima

Where do you slip up? when food is avalible to me or in my face

When did it start?when I was 9

Why did it start? I felt I needed to be thin to be accepted by people

Does Anyone know? my boyfriend

Do you want help? sometimes,but not now

Diet pills? no

fave binge food: bread and french frys oh and peanut butter

Fave dieting food: soup & fruit

How many cals do you consume a day? 400-500 and I still hate myself for it and feel gross

What tips do you use to lose weight? don't eat!

What do you see when you look in the mirror? discust,a failure

Are you in a relationship?no

If so, Do they pressure you to be thin?no

Are you the fat or thin one out of your friends? thin one

Are you depressed? yea

These past couple days have been real hard 4me.ive been real depressed about food,usually im fine w/not eating but im on my period,bloated,and feel fat.i still havnt stepped on a scale in a month.im 2 scared.today I had 2peice of lemon bread and 5small chips,teaspoon of Peanut butter,and 5suckers..how pathetic.to the averge person that's a snack for me its hate and I wanna just get it out! im discusted.uhhhh.i just want to be that skinny grl.so I can model and follow my dreams,be happy w/myself,so I can be and feel beautiful.

today I binged,ive been doin doing really good thepast week.but I figured shit ill eat 1day.thats all.2marrow ill start my fast AGAIN! im doing okay tho.i lose pretty fast.plus eating a couple days.thats okay rite?i will be 110 by may that is still a promise.

I was suppost 2start my fast today,did I?? NO!! I FUCKIN ATE LIKE A PIG!! eww.i had soo much probley 2000c.well just shows me that im not eating for awhile.it really made me think tho..well I am starting my fast 2marrow,thats a promise no exceptions!!

Tomarrow I start my fast,thank god.im so sick of looking in the mirrior and only seeing my fat and looking @my pant size(7/9) I want to be a 3.i want to be perfect.i want to have men want to be w/me and girls want 2look like me.I wanna be a fuckin skinny bitch that everybody jelous of.i wanna be happy w/myself!i need to be thin!!

Today I decided that I won't be weighing myself for 3weeks.i just hate not seeing huge #s drop on the scale.In the next 3weeks ill be eating no more then 300c and ill be working out everyday.i really want to challenge myself and just show people that I have power.im really tempted to do this!for real!

okay I had about 400c today.i feel discusting!! I barley ate and I hate myself for it.i guess I have to eat a little to stay alive.but how am I suppost to lose when my body still has food in it?!? I don't know how much longer I can eat.i hate it to much!

okay well today I ate 2cups of dry cheerios and a couple cups of coffe.i feel discusted with myself just with that in me.i don't want anything in me not even water.i think my goal weight should be coming really soon if I just don't eat anything.does anybody know how much weight I could lose in a week without eating?

I feel so good because I lost some weight! im starting to see more of my ribs and spine.i love it!! I feel amazing even though im not healthy at all.i can't wait to push my body into a small size.i don't even get hungry anymore.uhh I love this shit!

ok.well I've had about 600cals today.but im not that mad because I've been more active today then I usually am.but I won't be eating for the next few days.so that's good.this gross weight is going to come off!! that's a promise!!

I now weigh 135 lbs.so I lost 2 1/2 pounds.god I wish it would just melt off.i hate looking @ myself like this its gross and keeping me away from people I love.My BMI is 19.9. Is that bad?? uggghhh I feel gross.

Today I've had 890c..SICK!! I hate the feeling of having food in my stomach.I just don't want to go back to binging and purging but it happens everytime.i need to have more control.,i have 2 have control.thats it.mo more then 300c a day!!

ok so this is everything I had today:: 2 pancakes,cup of nuts,and a diet coke.im very mad at myself.because I ate way to much and just layed around.god,i fuckin hate food.i hope 2marrow goes better.

ok well yesterday was bad,cuz I had like 700c.eww.never again.so far today I had about 150c.which is all im gonna have today.and that's enough!! im really motivated to lose weight since I've been having support from everybody on LJ.so thank you.

ok.well I had about 150 more calories today.i went to subway.but that was it for today.as long as I don't eat 2marrow.ill be fine.

so far I've had 500 cals today!! eww.but yesterday I had 0 so I guess its okay.I had a scone at starbucks and a pack of Starburst.but that'll probley be it for the day.Ive been drinking about a gallon of lemon water daily to cleanse out my system.My goals are to be 120 lbs in 4weeks.and 110 by may.i have along time.and if I don't eat at all it'll be easy.i feel so good tho when I have no food in me.

Guess What?!? Im so happy,I didn't eat shit!! im doing the detox all the way,ha ha.i feel so good.i love it.im gonna be skinny in no time....Thank God!